Everything that goes through my head I don’t know how to put it into words. My head gets hot and my breathing gets heavy and I don’t know how to react. I want to cry, but I don’t. I haven’t lied to anyone, I know what I know. THAT’S IT. How in the word does this keep happening to me. Most days I keep asking myself why bother anymore, why be here. And I tell myself. My family needs me. But everyone else seems so much better without me. Everyone I’m done, I can’t win for trying. I wouldn’t lie to you guys, I have no reason to. I hate it, I hate it here and 95% of everyone around. I just can’t do it anymore.